There's such thing as BAD stretching?! pssh.

i wrote this about a week ago,.. i wrote more just now, but of course it didn't sav and now i'm too tired/angry to rewrite it all.

I think i appreciate my friends more the older i get. heck, i appreciate anyone who still considers me a pal after listening to one of my crazy/interesting dilemmas/stories or after a night of  heavy drinking with me. SSS! :) life is good.

I had a great hour long conversation with my ma today about careers, being broke, getting married, and how i have goals. haha. While talking about how all my 2nd cousins who are my age are now married my ma tells me that while i'm not getting any younger, i'm trying to make a life/career for myself and that i didn't work that hard and spend that much money to work somewhere like JCP for the rest of my life while paying off my student loans. HAHA. gosh, i wish i could direct quote how she put all of that. it was soo funny, but soo true. it's not that i feel behind because i'm not married, it's just weird that everyone around me is doing all that and i just want to be successful in the fashion industry. A lot of people give up too soon. then again, i guess some people are content where they are.. i just want more. My ma did tell me a hundred times that i need to find someone. haha. she's so weird. i know she'd be all pissy if i started seriously dating someone again. anyone want to guess where i get my wishy-washyness from? we have this conversation at least once a month. today i was having a sad day, and when i feel all lame, i call my ma. our chats always cheer me up and somehow inspire me... even if she lectures me a lot.
We talked about how I want to buy a pair of Christian Louboutin's. She had no clue who he was until I said "you know, the shoes with the red soles." She says, "Oh! the ones Oprah wears. You know I could paint the bottom of some shoes red for very cheap." 'HAHA! Ma, that's not the same!' "It's just a name, Shannon. How about that Alexander guy? Who does that?!" 'Alexander McQueen! So sad.' "Who kills themselves because their mother died?!" 'Well, what do you think i'm going to do when you die?' "you better not!!"  'but you're my everything, ma! if you die, i don't have anything else going on'  "don't talk like that! haha" (and keeps saying something about me having kids)