ruin me. lol.

i'm horrible at updating.

i finally went to the gym yesterday! i ended up going to the one in e. harlem, and it was fabulous! then i ruined my 3 mi run and half hour ab work out by going to The Shake Shack with Russell. That place was simply amazing!! i had caramel shake, because you can't go to a place that has the word 'shake' in the title and not get one!, and a cheeseburger. both were soo good! it was so good that i went there today with my pal/roomie. haha! we were going to have burgers regardless and i told her so much about shake shack, so we went there... but to the one on the upper west side. mmm peanut butter shake. yep, so i'll be running 4 mi. tomorrow! eek.

getting in shape is a pain. i wouldn't necessarily say that i'm out of shape, but things could be better. then again, a lot of it is out of my control. thank you surgery! and i'm 99.9% sure there's something wrong going on with my internal organs. i have a lot of scar tissue, and i'm supposed to get it removed through another surgery or steroids (LOL) but i haven't. scar tissue is a pain! i go through stints where any time i make a quit move or sneeze or laugh too hard, i buckle over in pain. i'm certain that something ripped inside of me the other day. eww! haha. yea, i was curled up in a ball on the floor for a few after that. oh, waah waah, right? eh, it sucks. oh, life. i really liked that gym, so hopefully i keep going... summer is coming up!! can't be a total skinny whale. HAHA. wow, i'm silly.

so things have been crazy lately. i worked 8 days in a row at the showroom. GAH! it was a lot of work and exhausting, but a lot of fun at the same time. i got to play sales rep at Coterie, and even opened a new acct for the sales rep. woohoo! it was nice to be given lots of responsibility and show that i can handle it. i made a new pal, and immediately told my ma that he was going to be my new bff. he's going to be the new sales rep at the showroom and he's completely adorable! he's from the LA showroom and is replacing someone at the nyc one. the reps invited me out with them last sunday, after the first day of Coterie, and i had a really good time. i'm glad they invited me out... it was nice to get to know the people i work with and some of the reps at the LA showroom that were in town for the tradeshow.

trying to find a real job is a pain. side note: it bothers me when people say, "don't you have a job?" or "so the job you have now is a fake one?" No, you idiot! i work a part time job that doesn't pay much more than lima beans an hour.. that is not a real job. i don't plan on working part time in a retail store after i paid over $60,000 for a degree!! oh, morons... can't stand them!!!! yep, that really fires me up. a real job= a career!! who the hell doesn't know that!! we only say that all through college (and after college when we can't find decent employment) about how we want real jobs and not half ass ones that barely pay.

any way, things haven't been going as planned in the quest for a real job. i had an interview, and ended up not getting the job. i was severely bummed. it's just so aggravating when you know you're qualified for a position and then you don't get it. i also love when i get a reply email saying, 'with all your experience in sales, why would you want to do merchandising?' then it asked something about my qualities for the job. idk, it was the rudest email i've received. it was clear that this guy didn't even read my resume or cover letter. one, at 16 you can't be a real merchandiser. two, if he took the time to actually read over my resume it's more than obvious that every job i've ever had i did merchandising. come on!! wtf do you think i do at a SHOWROOM?! haha. so i replied back with a "lovely" response to his Q's, and mentioned that he can refer to my resume more than once.

something good happened today! well, other than finding the betsey johnson jacket of my dreams!! celeste and i spent a little too much time at BJ, so we had to change locations of the second store we wanted to go to. we were trying to go to brooklyn to check out brooklyn industries, but we were running very short on time. instead, we went to soho location. we were chatting it up with two employees about the store--they're into sustainability and eco-design-- and how we think it's so great and how we're into that too. celeste mentions that i was interested in a job and the one person we were speaking with said that there might be someone in the store that i could talk to about the position. i ended up speaking with a guy about the boston location that is opening next month (on Newbury St of course!!) and i gave him my resume :) he told me to resend my resume to him at his personal email address and that he'd like to schedule a meeting with me next week when he gets back from boston. how exciting?! heck yea for being in the right place at the right time. things like this never happen to me. i check out his business card when i get home and to find out that i was chatting it up with the district manager. haha. wow. i really, really hope something great comes from this. i'd live in boston in a heart beat, and hell yes i would work on newbury st. i'm not going to get my hopes up about it, but the whole situation was really awesome. i don't want to be pessimistic, but i'm not going to be totally optimistic.
everything is kind of crazy. i have no clue where i'm going to be in 30 days. i have to be "out" of my current living arrangement by March 31 and  i'm not sure where i'll be headed. i was "invited" to stay in boston for a bit for fun/try to find employment... or i can go back to MI. a part of me wants to go home.. mostly for silly reasons, like pals, but there's no work for me there. more than likely, if i don't find something in the city, i'll be going to boston for a bit... then i'll crawl back to mi :( the upside to going home is that i can work my lovely 2 jobs, possibly a 3rd one, and save money to move. gah. this being grown thing is hard. ha.

now time for some funny/inappropriateness!
You say it like i'm judging you. i don't care if you went ATM with him. (hahaha!)
A big hot mess of fun. like a syringe full of blow and H. (i suppose that's a compliment! matty!)
plan po shouldn't be an option.
oh please. getting no sex is better than terrible sex.
he corrected me for saying 'good' instead of  'well.' i played it off like i didn't care, but i immediately thought, "wtf?! really?! i'm going to punch you in the face!"
i'm gonna buy my ass a valentines day present from Tiffany. i'll buy your ass a pashmina from the street vendor outside!
i'm going effin nuts... i got a creepy homeless man on my left staring and 2 people in front of me hardcore making out. im at starbucks. wtf.
who more or less conceives a child at McD's?!? they need to leave.
idk. you have a lot of assessing to do. what works for j and i (haha) we only hang out 1 or 2x a week. then i'm on a rollercoaster of sometimes having feelings for him and other times i don't care. --haha.
fml.. im destined to live with my parents the rest of my life! and the weird "salesman," or street telemarketer as i like to call them, who i decided to give my number to just txtd to ask if i smoke weed. insult to injury much?
wish your sister luck.. otherwise i'm moving in with you, broke, unemployed, and with expensive taste.
this is already date from hell and i'm not on it yet. i need a waffle.
i need to voice a complaint with the maker of my aftershave/cologne who listed no label or warning against applying to fresh shaved ----- (note to readers: i'll let you fill in the blank. haha! as if other things i've posted above aren't risque enough) ...think home alone. (haha.. <3 )
monkey suits/jammies are cute for little kids, we'd just look like we were in the "Bad Touch" video. HAHA!

oh, the things people send to me via text... heh, and the things i send back via text :)

geoffrey the giraffe hugged me yesterday! i was the happiest adult ever in toys r us.

time for bed! hope you enjoyed all that. i didn't reread any of this, so hopefully it makes sense. haha.